i.
i know i've told you this once before but i'm in danger of falling and i'm not sure the blown up mattress you've laid out 24 stories below will hold.
ii.
my fingers are gripping on the railing and they're becoming numb because i'm using every bit of strength left in my slowly decaying muscle. my eyes are sewn shut with the same needle and thread you bought me the night you laughed for 4 minutes and 30 seconds straight when you found out all i ever wanted was to knit my own damn scarf. [stores in the winter were never fulfilling enough] now i can't see a thing and i'm liking it this way because the blue of your eyes can't pull me in anym
You murdered two children
with your bare hands
and thanked God
that He saved you
from getting the death penalty,
bloody hands and all
I saved two children
from a burning fire
and hate the God
I no longer believe in
for burning my skin,
and with it my faith
It seems God
works in mysterious ways,
or maybe,
he doesn't work at all.
Boys Aren't Very Good by CrumbledWings, literature
Literature
Boys Aren't Very Good
Boys aren't very good
that I must say
though I don't mean mischievous
or they love to play
I mean that the fall
they neglect to learn
too even crawl
and yet wholeheartedly believe
they can walk,
for they are brave
but that does not mean they are good
or any less naive.
For the very fact a boy
is so brave
just means they aren't very good
at being afraid.
As child
this doesn't matter
the word brave
is meant to flatter,
but as man
on day they must learn
that is fear
something that is earned
it can't be avoided
with platitudes and flattery
it builds in every moment
that you recognize to be happy
that you recognize
that for someone you've begun
I want to mutter a million things,
but they’re catching in my throat
And my heart is heavy in my chest,
with a weight that holds a heavy load
This weight is not a pound of gold,
but rather a pound of worthless rocks
And now I’m spitting bits of gravel
as I try to talk
Simple Girl Complicated Problems by CloudNumber8, literature
Literature
Simple Girl Complicated Problems
I know I am not the daughter you wanted
But at least you got it right the second time
My little sister found her place in your hearts
But I feel I have never really found mine
Why would you care to listen to your first born?
When you have a fresh blank canvas to create
All of those things that you wish I could have been
Had I not developed such negative traits
But those negative traits make me who I am
And shouldn't you love me without condition?
See my stubbornness as being strong minded
And when I talk, don’t interrupt just listen
I know I am not the daughter you wanted
I scowl but I still need your loving embrace
Though you barely
The Family Has Been Informed by CloudNumber8, literature
Literature
The Family Has Been Informed
Bullets that are too far away to hear back home
But words that will forever ring just as loud in my ears
Delivered from the lips of a uniformed man
The sympathetic sentence any mother fears to hear
I turn away as if ignoring his presence
Will make this unwanted reality go away
But he repeats that he is sorry for my loss
Those words are the last thing I remember of that day
I find myself looking out of the back yard window
On the swings in the garden I still see my boy play
I am bringing drinks out to him and his brothers
Under the sun, on the grass, on endless summer days
Those memories like photographs in frames on the wall
Now show my so
Children are swinging, screaming;
Spinning on dead-eyed china horses. Beating the daylights out of stuffed animals and attacking coconuts for a prize. They're running around, stuck in the mirrors, searching for sweets and food to stuff their growing bodies with.
The balloon slips from my hand and drifts away above the bustling crowd. I push through the mass of people as it rises, getting farther away...
{Ce sera peut-être pris dans les arbres}
The crowd thins, but my balloon is forgotten as I rest my eyes upon a tattered, grimy old tent. The patterns have long since faded from mauve, threadbare fabric. I walk over and a man staggers